finally

ngeh3. myb tu la words yg kua dr mulut korg mase mule2 bace dis post. haha. sori teramat sgt. hehe. minggu ni stat klas. sgt byk event yg jd. n sgt bz. hoho. ade je mende nk kene buat. x pnh dpt chance golek2 kat bilik. ade je shopping la, org ajak bukak pose la...as a result, blog ni pon terpakse diabaikn kejap. hehe...now fana has made a comeback. so sit back n relax k =)

feelings
"apekah?" soklan yg slalu terpacul kat mulut. influence sape la agknye tu eh..huhu. feelings..mixed la. tp most of d time cm rase kesian kat diri sndiri. hoho. kesian. well, slalu je jln sorg2. haha. cm sedeh je bunyi x? bukan la sorg2 cane. cume sorg2 dlm d group. keh3. x kesah la kn. not all d time we can get things as how we like it. myb mengajar berdikari gk kot. d lesson i got: the only person u can rely on is YOURSELF. huhu..tp jgn la salah phm ke ape. org kat sini mmg sume baek2 belaka cume kat sini i tend to menyendiri. haha. nape tah. myb i wanna let myself think kot? cane nk describe eh. die cm rase as if i've got no close fren whom i can share my innermost thoughts..hehe..i hope dis is juz 4 short term. i want to be a more BISING2 person n be more happy. bcoz rite now, happy is definitely NOT d word 2 describe my feelings

physical impact
adeh. d weather is getting colder n colder. n it's not even winter yet. ahah. i wonder cane nk survive nnt. hehe. kdg2 pagi2 nk g klas tu berasap2 gk la mulut. kalo kat msia dulu cm excited gk la kn. tp mule2 je la. bile da sejuk smpi tulang pon nk menggigil, huhu how i wish im in malaysia..~ but don worry. tade pon homesick ke ape. dunno if it's a good thing. kdg2 rase cm, "Eh. aku ni tade perasaan ke ape?" hehe. well, d key is BALANCE of coz. kat sini yg best mmg xkn busuk la. kt mmg x pnh busuk pon. huhu. x peluh lgsg. lenguh kaki je la coz byk jln. pastu, bibir tu cm sentiase kering je. hehe. alhamdulillah nothing bad ngn my skin. ade la sket2 irritation sbb kering. hoho. da la pemalas nk sapu lotion..it's juz not my thing kot

classes
classes mostly stat kol 9. hehe. n it;s juz 5 mins walk from opal court, d place which i live in. ok la. slalu nye ade lectures then followed by groupwork. lectures are ok..menarik tp kurg menarik. haha. keji x? hehe. myb x biase lg ngn sistem kat uk ni kot. kat msia biase blaja cm written kn. kat sini cm more to verbal. so kene dgr je la. kdg2 ngantok gk dgr org ckp je. huhu. pastu tmbh lg ngn accent derg. haih. naek pening. lectures ok lg. groupwork, worse! huhu. im d only international student kot. d only one wearing hijab. group laen cm byk gk muslims. ala. kat sini muslim pon pd name je kot. taleh differentiate pon derg ni islam ke x. same je ngn org laen. pose pon x. but im not saying all. some. some muslims still bagus n berpegang pd ajaran Islam.. eheh. btw, bout my group. ade 9 ppl including me altogether. d ppl are quite ok n im getting used to sitting with them. cume skang im in d process of membukak mulut lebih byk. tp cm baek sket ngn sorg gurl ni. die la rajen layan kt borak2. ehe. nice!

so-called home
we're all separated. living in d same hall tp diff blocks n floor. huhu. my so-called home in uk is a room with a single bed, table, almari n a bathroom. dapor is separated n shared with my 4 other flatmate. ngah3. stakat ni br jumpe 2 org. sbb cm bz. dok kua msk je blk so x smpt nk jumpe sape2. huhu. pegi dapor pon kejap2 je. lg2 skang ni pose kn, so cm msk dapor bile nk sahor je. n obviously derg tgh tdo time tu. huhu. x menarik la dok asing2. coz it doesn't feel like home at all. rase cm kat tmpt asing je. especially dapor la. huhu. ape nk buat? da ditakdirkan, so terime je la..n yg magic nye, asal dlm bilik je mesti nk tertdo. haiya. penyakit utame. naseb la member2 slalu call kejot. huhu. ha, kat sini we got telephone 4 each room. n call from room to room is free. hehe. tu je la yg menarik pon rite now. hehe..tp plg best bile selubung bwh duvet la..tu yg susah nk bgn tdo tu. huhu. tp bln pose ni, amek initiative gk la g solat terawih same2 kat blk org. kalo x cm rase kosong je la bln pose ni kn. skang la br nk appreciate g terawih kat surau every nite eventho ngantok2. hehe

oh ye. walaupon cm ade camera, tp cm sket je amek gmba. coz like, everybody got camera pastu cm ramai je amek gmba. in the end, kt end up amek pictures from them. coz sndiri mls nk amek gmba. hoho. tp juz nk kate im doing fine here. still not reaching d stage where i can be happy but getting there i think. with lots of helpful ppl esp seniors insyaAllah i'll be juz fine..~ i juz hope to be d same me as who i am before =)

semoge ALLAH memberi kekuatan kpd diriku ini..~